Letting go
Attachment.
A big teacher if you are willing to go there. In theory it makes sense. Less attachment equals less stress when things don’t turn out as you wanted them too.
We all have attachments. Big ones, small ones, totally unconscious ones. I didn’t realise how attached I had become to my name until I had to let it go. Well technically I didn’t have to let it go, I chose to. But nonetheless, noticing me feel reluctant to shift from my maiden name Nicole Perry to my married name Nicole Lee was an interesting dance indeed. It wasn’t so much the name I was attached to but the role and identity of a young, single, independent women I had grown so familiar and comfortable with.
I recently experienced the “Attachment” lesson again when I made my decision to walk away from the life I had meticulously created and step into the new. My old life was starting to wear thin and feel restrictive. Like a shoe that rubs in the wrong place. I had become so accustomed to being an entrepreneur, a corporate consultant, a facilitator, a coach. It worked well and I felt safe in that space. I was busy. Had wonderful clients. This was my life, these were my roles, my daily habits, my reality. And I was very much attached to all of the above. My value and identity was deeply linked to the success of my business, my travel schedule, my workshops and my client feedback.
But when the lights go out… what happens then?
When the shoe rubs so hard, you can’t ignore the blisters.
Do you plaster bandaids on your toes hoping for relief? Do you hobble around believing no one really notices the discomfort you are in. Or do you take them off and dare to walk bare-footed? Dropping the shoes, the identity and the many layers of who you thought you were in the process.
And… what does it mean to drop them? And let them all go. Do you dare to step into the unknown and dance with the notion that you may not be who you perceived yourself to be.
With a blank canvas… who would you become?
And are you ready for that transformation?
Chances are… if you have read this far than quite possibly - yes.
The uncertainty of letting your old familiar life go can shake-up the most unshakable. But then again… it is the shaking that releases the old restrictive patterns and conditioning to allow our true magic to shine through.
“What is your comfort zone now, was once new and strange as well.” Wild Kuan Yin Oracle
Trust and unquestionable faith that things will always unfold as they are meant to, has kept me sane and been a guiding light through some of the tougher days. Setting the intention to become aware of when the inner critic rant starts and and then finding useful ways to distract the mind. It takes courage to not fold to the old stories we construct of ourselves. Staying centred through the cloud of self-doubt ultimately takes self-awareness and discipline.
And now... I am learning how to dance barefoot and free. I feel I am beginning to remember a lost part of my soul. A piece that has been quietly asleep - waiting patiently for me to turn it on and light it up.
And this beautiful new beginning is available to anyone who hears the call. Who knows life can be more than we what see.
Are you listening? Has your call begun?
